“This blog is about my search for "me". I plan to attempt to "drop the mask" of my insecurity, fakeness, and societal pressures in order to bear my heart and soul and discover who I REALLY AM, rather than who I am SUPPOSED to be in others' eyes. Because until We Drop the Masks and all have faces, we will never truly know how wonderful life really is.” --DroptheMask blog profile, 1/6/11
Since I began my first blog, nearly nine months ago today, so much change has transpired in my life—both good and bad. The primary reason for the beginning of my blog so many months ago now was in order to create a healthy emotional outlet for all of the various life changes that I was going through. Since the start of my “DroptheMask” blog on January 6, 2011, I have lived through shock over the start of my ex-husband’s new life, several family deaths, countless petty heartbreaks, numerous adventures, confusing new relationships with old and new people, and the beginning of my life’s journey (and my new family) with the love of my life, Kyle.
Nine months ago, I would have never guessed that I would be where I am today—and, if given the choice, I honestly believe that I would not change anything about what I have gone through or the ways I took to get here. No—everything was not perfect; and Yes—many things could have been done far differently than they were; however, life lessons would probably have never been learned had one simple step been altered.
Throughout my “search” for me, I began to learn the art of truth-telling to the most important person ever—myself. And through my searching and learning process, I discovered that once I truly knew and understood who I was in my own life—then the discovery and understanding of others also came a lot easier than ever. During the realization of my actual thoughts and desires and through the “dropping of my own mask”, my actions and reactions to the sometimes confusing life situations became a lot clearer to me, as well. It was almost as if I was thinking with a far clearer mind than ever before. Admittedly, throughout this process, I may not have always made other people happy about (or even totally accepting of) my decisions—but for once, I was happy and completely content with the decisions I had chosen for myself.
All in all, I believe that my entire blog experiment was a very successful one—I discovered (and revealed) a ton about myself (whether I liked it or not), learned numerous things about others, renewed a passion for writing in my soul, and at times even touched others’ hearts with the very unveiling of my own. Oddly, ever since my last entry on my way to Hawaii, “Mahalo, My Love,” I have felt as if the “DroptheMask” chapter of my life has finally closed; and thankfully, I am now completely at peace with all that has happened during that phase of my life. Without a doubt, DroptheMask has served its purpose in my life and I now feel as if it has run its course for what I was originally seeking out to do during that specific time in my life. Although I still have a passion to write about my life and thoughts; I no longer feel that my new entries about my “new life” really belong in the same venue as my “DroptheMask” entries. My entire life has been transformed and I could not be happier. I have truly found love through the relationship with my new husband, Kyle—and more importantly, through the new true relationship with my self. As a result, I now realize that I am still very far from perfect; however, I have also come to accept that everybody else is in the same exact boat as me…
My New Life…. http://briefrecollections.blogspot.com
